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When Rejection Rears It's Ugly Head

Discouragement. It’s a feeling those in ministry know all too well and too often. I knew to expect this when I entered into ministry, but something I wasn’t quite as prepared for was rejection. Feeling rejected when those who were supposed to support you in ministry are suddenly nowhere to be found. Feeling rejected when people who had started coming to church or bible study and getting plugged in suddenly decide to stop coming. Feeling rejected when the ministry you knew for sure God was calling you to isn’t succeeding as fast or as well as you had envisioned, or maybe not even at all.
These are the thoughts and feelings spinning in my head and heart as I drove home from lunch today. A great lunch with great friends that followed an equally amazing church service. An amazing church service that I was overwhelmed and discouraged about the day before that God completely showed up at even without a sound system or really much of a congregation.

The enemy is so good at distorting good things isn’t he? And we’re too easily apt to letting him. To believing the lies he plants in our heads that there is nothing of value in what we are doing.

I know through and through that our wrestle is not against flesh and blood but I consistently find myself getting discouraged and disappointed by people.

I know without a doubt that in this world we will have troubles but my God has overcome the world but yet I still let myself be overcome by the world and it’s troubles.
So, I sit here now. Writing out my emotions. Processing through what I feel and what I know and realizing how separated they seem in this moment. I sit here now and choose to see the beauty from the ashes. I chose to believe that God is not done. I chose to believe in the good he has given me, not the discouragement and rejection I feel.

Because I know and BELIEVE that our wrestle is not against flesh and blood. It is against rulers and powers and authorities of the dark realm. Against the spiritual forces in the heavenly realms. (Ephesians 6:12)
Because I know and BELIEVE that in this world I WILL have troubles, but I can take heart because He has overcome the world! (John 16:33)
Because I know and BELIEVE that He who began a good work WILL complete it. (Philippians 1:6)

My emotions are fleeting and often rooted more in fear, than reality. So I must and WILL cling to the Truth that God is good. Despite my circumstances.

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